My Princess Hours

Ok, kali nih post SERIUS sedikit...

Gua maw share sumthing ttg my talented gf kat sni~~ 

Kat bawah nih suma video yg arwah sempat bagi gua sblum dia pergi

Masih lagi simpan dalam hp, kadang2 klu bosan, buka tgok jap..

Die hard fan Yuna nih, smpai cara arwah dress-up pon ikut2 Yuna

Ok, lagu fvret arwah ekceli adalah Dan Sebenarnya~~

tp malangnya videonya xda, cma audio record seja...sob3x...

Tp xpa, ada 3 lg video yg kira tgempakla spnjang zaman..

Bminggu2 arwah blatih n dan hasilnya... taraaaaa~~~

Nih dia 1st video released arwah pada umum, tajuk dia Rocket. 

Best lagu nih, klu maw dgr yg ori, sila klik download

2nd video plak tajuk dia After Midnight~~

Yg nih pon lagu dia best, 1st dgr pon rasa siuk sda...

3rd video and da last one ialah Bukannya Aku Takut

Yg ini gua msh ingt lg, time2 maghrib dia sms suruh gua dgr

Lpas smbahyg tuh, trus p bka Youtube, carik lagu nih..

1st time dgr tajuknya aku skjap, mcm lucu...

Tp lpas dgr, trus...

Nih dia videonya~~

Amcm? Ok x dia
 Hehehe..hurm, arwah mmg krja keras wo main gitar smpai gitarku pun d kebasnya
Plan aritu time bfday dia pada 1hb Disember maw blikan dia gitar
Siap kmpul duit sda nih, around rm300 gitu~~
Tp hajat xkesampaian...

Apa2 pun, video2 nih la jadi barang peninggalan arwah
Nih ubat kalah antibiotik, ini pengobat rindu org bilang~~


Ok, smpai d sni seja episod kali nih, jmpa lagi d ari dan wktu yg sma dlm rncangan Mari Mengambur Bersama Kura Kura


p/s: Hakcipta terpelihara. Semua video yang dipaparkan di dalam www.sirfar8.blogspot.com di bawah nama pena Kura Kura Hijau dan www.sirfar8.blogspot.com merupakan hakcipta yang dimiliki oleh Prof. Dr. Farid. Sebarang pengedaran tanpa kebenaran adalah dilarang!

Misa....

I feel so regret right now,
On the day we argued,
I left you because of my useless pride,

I see you leaving me behind...

I thought I’m going to see you later,

I hope you’ll come for me,
But after so long,
You left me without any words...

You treat me so well,
But I don’t appreciate it,
but now I understand,
You’re suffering because of my stubbornness...

You’re always by my side but I never appreciate it,
Can you forgive an idiot like me?

Your love only belongs to me,
Please don’t leave me...

I’m falling in love with you,

I know my love has made you suffer,

Do I have to apologize? 

Should I apologize?

You ask me to forget all about you,
If you could understand me,
Please forgive me,
Although I’m crying again...

Although it’s wrong, 

I can’t,
Although I closed my eyes,

I still can see you,
Although I’ve suffered with you but I’m happy thinking of it...

Eventhough I closed my ears,
I still hear your voice,
Since I can’t forget you,
I’m going to love you,

Till the day I die...

I’m missing you so much that I’m hurt,
I hope you’ll be happy there even without me sit by your side,
I Hope you’ll be happy….hope you’ll be happy

Cinta lama biarkan berlalu...

Jika ada, itu namanya cinta. Cinta itu amat misteri dan tersendiri. Ia sentiasa wujud bersama berdenyutnya nadi. Jauh di dalam hati, cinta masih terasa segar. Ada kalanya kita masih teringat si dia. Walaupun semuanya itu sudah bertahun berlalu, dia terasa begitu dekat. Kita masih ingat suaranya. Kita masih nampak senyum tawanya.

Kita masih terdengar-dengar gurau sendanya. Rasanya baru semalam berlalu. Tahu-tahu usia kita sudah menghampiri setengah abad. Sudah bertahun rupanya dia pergi meninggalkan kita atau kita yang pergi membawa kejujurannya.

Terkadang kita berasa sunyi dan mahu mendengar kembali semua yang pernah kita dengari dari mulutnya. Kita mahu dia mengulanginya. Namun tidak mungkin, kerana yang pergi tidak mungkin kembali.

Di manakah dirimu sekarang? Apakah dirimu juga selalu teringatkanku sebagaimana aku sentiasa teringatkanmu? Kita sering tertanya-tanya, di manakah dia. Kita sering memujuk hati kita supaya menerima hakikat bahawa dia ‘telah tiada’. Tapi hati kita sukar hendak percaya. Ia terus teringat dan ia terus mereka-reka cerita. Pernah tak kita teringatkan seseorang dan kita amat merinduinya. Kita mahu segera berada disampingnya. Kita mahu dia mendengari kita? Itulah cinta namanya.

Misteri sungguh perasaan ini. Ia datang dan terus datang tanpa mempedulikan hakikat siapa kita lagi, dan siapa dia sekarang ini. Kita terus teringat dan terus teringat. Kita merindui suaranya, merindui gelak tawanya yang pernah kita simpan jauh di sudut hati kita. Kita ingin sekali mendengar kata-kata cintanya terucap lagi di telinga kita.

Itulah cinta. Ia misteri yang tidak pernah berjaya diberikan jawapan oleh manusia sejak dulu hingga kini. TUHAN menciptakan manusia bersama cinta dan kasih sayang. Bagaimanapun kita cuba menghilangkannya, ia tetap datang dan datang.

Andainya kita diberi kesempatan untuk mengulangi semua kehidupan, ingin kita lakukan yg terbaik. Namun, itu hanyalah ilusi. Kehidupan yg telah pergi tidak mungkin berulang. Usia yang telah terguna tidak mungkin kembali. Urat telah timbul, kedut-medut di wajah telah jelas, tenaga semakin berkurangan, mata kian kabur, langkah semakin terhenti-henti, tapi hati masih mekar dan segar.

Wahai hati, sedarilah hidup ini pergi bersama sejarahnya. Sejarah yang telah berlalu tidak perlu diulangi. Biarkan ia kekal sebagai sejarah yg boleh dipelajari apa-apa teladan dan pengalaman daripadanya. Esok yangg bakal dihadapi lebih perlu untuk dibina bersama besarnya tekad dan tingginya azam. Muncullah sebagai manusia yang gemilang lagi cemerlang...

The blissful rainy day...

When the rain starts to fall,
I try to hear the rhythm of rain drops to the earth,
I walk out and stand outside within the rain,
As blood flows through my veins,
I try gaze at the sky,
I start to cry,
No one knows that I cry...

A litre tears by me maybe can't compare to the rain,
The tears I cry maybe just like rains drops dripping from the leaves,
But every drop of my tears,
Make my wound heart feel very pain,
Regretfully,
Regretfully I'm like this...

I'm starting to love the rain,
It makes me very calm,
I hope that the rain will wash away my pain,
And give me a smiling rainbow for my coming days...

All my time with you,
The times we laughed together,
The promises we made to each other,
I’ll remember them forever as a replacement of you,
Hopefully it'll give me a strength to continue my breathing without you...

I won't cry for you anymore,
I hate that you left without a word,
Even if ten years or a hundred years pass,
Or if a thousand years pass I can't erase this sadness,
I won't cry it for now and forever,
The truth is I want to forget all of this sadness,
And start a new journey with happiness in my hands...

My kumakuma,
Even if you'll not come back
Even if you're not by my side anymore,
Even if we've no chance to seeing the sea together anymore,
Your love will buried in my heart forever...

This is not a poem. This is just my feeling after 26 days she's gone. I really miss her so much...

My sorrows beyond the Seas...

Look out at the Sea and I try to feel it,
But it's not the Sea that I feel is it,
It is but your soul,
Trapped in the sorrows of the Seas,
Trapped, trapped, trapped,
In a Sea of confusion, surrounded me with question marks,
In a Sea of remorse, surrounded me with memories,
In a Sea of worthless thoughts, surrounded me with dark clouds,
In a Sea of poetic rythm, surrounded me with floating words,
It never is but a Sea,
I walk along the beach,
Cry and pray to God in front of the waves,
All I can see is but the sorrows of the Sea,
Alone, alone, alone,
Alone I sit,
Alone I cry,
Alone is but the sea,
Alone my soul alone my shadow,
It is the sorrows of the Sea,
I cry,
Cry to the sorrows of the Sea,
I am alone,
I am alone and only I and Me know,
And the sorrows of the Sea...

My nightmare of Sea,
My dreams and wishes rocking back and forth to form the waves,
This Sea that changes its color from deep dark blue to a light azure,
Change within also my color,
My great sky towers above everything,
My sky of miracles,
The sky that is as enchanted as my wonderful Sea,
It's too along with the sea changes shade,
As from white to black to blue,
From a sunset red to a dark violet,
From a mellow scarlet to a fiery orange
This seascape portrays beauty but not for my imaginary...

The clouds roll in on me so heavily,
I feel the rains presence as I listen to the roaring Sea,
That blue Sea that takes you in and washes you away,
To somewhere you may or may not want to stay,
That blue Sea that I look in for answers,
That blue Sea that questions my questions,
Or gives me an answer only with question backwards,
That blue sea that leaves your thoughts within its deep blue content,
That feeling it gives leaving you absent of what could happen as that blue Sea waves,
Washing away the thoughts and emotiond you felt,
Yes I'm talking hurt and pain,
That blue Sea that your secrets swim within,
That blue Sea you floated in continuously again and again,
That blue Sea, that blue sea
That blue Sea is reality...

Beyond the Sea,
My heart is gone, far, far from me,
And ever on its track will flee,
My thoughts and dreams are beyond the Sea,
The swallow wanders fast and free,
Chirping happily with freedom,
I, too, would fly beyond the Sea,
But here for me it may not be,
My heart is gone beyond the Sea...

...About my dream that I wrote before this...Hurm, Misa came to me and told me that she's just kidding to 'dissapeared' for a while. She want me to appologize
her and then she ask me going somewhere. But, before both of us starting to walk, I ask her to see my mom. I want to introduce her to my mom. But, after
that, I'm awake and realized that I'm sweated a lot. I feel so dizzy at that time. I came out of my room and taking some fresh air. Hurm..I'm just finish my
day at my room and just looking a scenery outside of my window...

Our moments together...

at Warisan Square

at Terminal 2

I'm so enjoy spent time with you. It'll make me cry when I try to imagine all the time. I miss you Misa...

Hiba by Hujan

Oh Hiba...

Memang waktu ini kaulah temanku,

Memang hidup,

Apa-apa pun ajal yang kau temu...

[bridge]

Memang tuhan sayangkanmu,

Ku tatap gambarmu tak jemu,

[chorus]

Harus kuteruskan hidup,

Walaupun perit tanpamu,

Tetap ku peluk erat memori kau dan aku,

Harus kuteruskan hidup,

Walaupun perit tanpamu,

Kudoakan agar kau sentiasa bahagia,

Disana..

[repeat at bridge].

This song called Hiba by Hujan always keep playing repeteadly during this recently days. I don't know why, but by hearing this song, it helps me a lil bit
to cure my soul. Nothings I can do now, I just have to face this fate. Hanani always keep telling me this. Honestly, it's very difficult for me to beared and
faced it. Here, I want to give a credit to my family and all my friend especially some friends from SPTA, Azila and her sis, my new friend Hanani, Memeng,
Naz and others for ur support. I don't know how to thanks all of you.

Another song also keep playing such as Sayang from KRU, Bila aku sudah tiada by Hujan, Dan Sebenarnya by Yuna and Show me the meaning of being lonely by BSB,
Luluh, Kenangan Terindah, Akhir Rasa Ini and Kisah Tak Sempurna by Samsons. I just love to finish all my day by hearing song since Misa absolutely love
to heard it. At night, I finish almost my time by read al-Quran. surah Yassin became my favourite and I nearly fully memorized it.
Hopefully, by doing this, I'll become more strong to start a new life without my soulmate.

Almost all my friend said to me like this "Ada hikmah tuh di sebalik semua ini", something like that la, and agreed with them. Before Misa gone, there is
a sign. Something was happen between us. Our relationship got a conflict like other couples, but it's not too serious. But, because of that, we rarely
faced or texted for a months. We also didn't meet before I go back to Sandakan. After she's gone, I realized that Allah want both of us separate slowly.
There is another sign, but i'll not talk here.

Until today, I still keep questioning myself, is it Misa still alive? If she still alive, where she is? Is it she doing well with her life there? Another
thousand, maybe a million question comes to my mind. Sometimes it makes me feel so jumpy. I'm so curious about it. My mind can't stop thinking about it.
What should I do? I'm trying to do something, like facebooking, playing games, washing all my clothes, and so on, and it only works for a while. But, I
think the progression is good and i'll keep it up. Hopefully, I can 'restart' myself. So, pray for me ya...

Hurm..the main reason why I wrote all of this things actually is I want to share my feelings here. Thats all. Since Misa also love to share her feeling in
her blogs, so I also want to do it.

Last words from me, it's more like a moral of the story. Hurm... don't waste your time, appreciate and try to enjoy each seconds in your life especially
to your beloved one and also all people around you, important people in your life. You'll regret it if your not. Thats all for me now, I hope all of you
understand what I'm try to say here. I know, my english is still not good enough, I'll try to improve it later on. I will, yes, I will. That is one of
Misa's mission for me. I'll do it even I've to do it alone.

Today is our 7th monthsary. Exactly 7 month. I can't sleep calmly. But, finally I slept around 4. I was dreamed about Misa. After that, I realize that
it's already half-past 7. Huh...

*to be continued..

The dark cloud...

How to hide my sadness?
The place where I lost you,
The shine of your eyes turn into dark,
I already cannot catch up the shine...

The sky which has long not been sunny still keeps your smile as before,
Even with my eyes closed I still can imagine your smile,
At that time my tears came out,
Because I already lost the real one...

If I can't imagine anymore a smile of yours,
Will I be able to forget all about you?
Your voice is so near yet I can't hold you,
The sun will still spin without the earth,
I can still walk by myself without a reason...

When you’re not here,
It’s so hard for me to bear,
Whenever I don’t have you to think about, I am so troubled,
whenever I want to laugh, you'll make me cry,
Whenever I miss you, I'll break down like this eventhough I try forget...

The white phone is always by my side,
I always keep watching on it,
I am waiting and keep waiting,
But there is no call from you...

I remembered it all my memory with you,
When I see those all memories with you, they seem so small,
You're far away in a place that I can't reach,
Will I ever get to meet you again?

Love, fate and even destiny,
All lose meaning with the word goodbye,
Eventhough you have to left me alone,
I'll still love you and I'll keep you as my sweet memories...

When time goes by,
Will this heart change too like autumn, winter, summer and spring that always change?
Will all the memories of you drift away in the sea?
Memories of you now keep Climbing deep into my heart,
Keep climbing and made me feel so pain...

The dark cloud places a piece of shadow in my heart,
Will time that keeps running also leaves a silhouette to covered the tenderness in the past?
If so, then i hope it'll covered also a sadness that doesn't go away...