Hiba by Hujan

Oh Hiba...

Memang waktu ini kaulah temanku,

Memang hidup,

Apa-apa pun ajal yang kau temu...

[bridge]

Memang tuhan sayangkanmu,

Ku tatap gambarmu tak jemu,

[chorus]

Harus kuteruskan hidup,

Walaupun perit tanpamu,

Tetap ku peluk erat memori kau dan aku,

Harus kuteruskan hidup,

Walaupun perit tanpamu,

Kudoakan agar kau sentiasa bahagia,

Disana..

[repeat at bridge].

This song called Hiba by Hujan always keep playing repeteadly during this recently days. I don't know why, but by hearing this song, it helps me a lil bit
to cure my soul. Nothings I can do now, I just have to face this fate. Hanani always keep telling me this. Honestly, it's very difficult for me to beared and
faced it. Here, I want to give a credit to my family and all my friend especially some friends from SPTA, Azila and her sis, my new friend Hanani, Memeng,
Naz and others for ur support. I don't know how to thanks all of you.

Another song also keep playing such as Sayang from KRU, Bila aku sudah tiada by Hujan, Dan Sebenarnya by Yuna and Show me the meaning of being lonely by BSB,
Luluh, Kenangan Terindah, Akhir Rasa Ini and Kisah Tak Sempurna by Samsons. I just love to finish all my day by hearing song since Misa absolutely love
to heard it. At night, I finish almost my time by read al-Quran. surah Yassin became my favourite and I nearly fully memorized it.
Hopefully, by doing this, I'll become more strong to start a new life without my soulmate.

Almost all my friend said to me like this "Ada hikmah tuh di sebalik semua ini", something like that la, and agreed with them. Before Misa gone, there is
a sign. Something was happen between us. Our relationship got a conflict like other couples, but it's not too serious. But, because of that, we rarely
faced or texted for a months. We also didn't meet before I go back to Sandakan. After she's gone, I realized that Allah want both of us separate slowly.
There is another sign, but i'll not talk here.

Until today, I still keep questioning myself, is it Misa still alive? If she still alive, where she is? Is it she doing well with her life there? Another
thousand, maybe a million question comes to my mind. Sometimes it makes me feel so jumpy. I'm so curious about it. My mind can't stop thinking about it.
What should I do? I'm trying to do something, like facebooking, playing games, washing all my clothes, and so on, and it only works for a while. But, I
think the progression is good and i'll keep it up. Hopefully, I can 'restart' myself. So, pray for me ya...

Hurm..the main reason why I wrote all of this things actually is I want to share my feelings here. Thats all. Since Misa also love to share her feeling in
her blogs, so I also want to do it.

Last words from me, it's more like a moral of the story. Hurm... don't waste your time, appreciate and try to enjoy each seconds in your life especially
to your beloved one and also all people around you, important people in your life. You'll regret it if your not. Thats all for me now, I hope all of you
understand what I'm try to say here. I know, my english is still not good enough, I'll try to improve it later on. I will, yes, I will. That is one of
Misa's mission for me. I'll do it even I've to do it alone.

Today is our 7th monthsary. Exactly 7 month. I can't sleep calmly. But, finally I slept around 4. I was dreamed about Misa. After that, I realize that
it's already half-past 7. Huh...

*to be continued..